Why I think “#BellLetsTalk” is missing an important point about Mental Health

Why I think “#BellLetsTalk” is missing an important point about Mental Health

You may have seen memes of a lion or battle-hardened soldier with the words ‘The Problem With Being Strong Is That Nobody Bothers to Ask.’

I’ve asked

I’ve talked.

I’ve tried.

But it seemed that nobody listened.

It seemed that nobody wanted to hear.

 

I am a big man; I’ve lived a big life, and I come across as hard and strong.

I’ve led soldiers and emergency responders and been extremely successful.

Yet I have failed.

Failed in relationships, struggled in business and made moral mistakes that sit heavy on my heart.

I was a functioning drunk who drank Rye like it was a cure for alcoholism.

I am pretty sure I have been depressed, and I know I have struggled with my mental health.

I grew up in an environment and served in the Army when you were not sick unless a bone was sticking out of your body.  I understood that mental health issues were a sign of weakness. Motivational posters surrounded me saying: ‘Big boys don’t cry,’ ‘Pain is weakness leaving the body,’ and a visit to the Chaplain or a Counsellor was a black mark on your career.

 

Such initiatives like ‘#SickNotWeak’ and ‘#BellLetsTalk’ are excellent in destigmatizing mental health issues.

For a child of the ‘60s, it is remarkable that mental health problems are now considered normal and asking for help is the right thing to do.

But where ‘#BellLetsTalk’ misses the mark is that we need to have a complementary imitative called ‘#LetsListen.’

But for many bringing an emotional problem up is hard to do.

 

In many of my blog posts, I have spoken about my last couple of years at Red Cross. I was struggling in a shifting and changing workplace. I had made a bad hire and was trying to manage an asshole. Years of working in high tension environments were catching up with me. I was leading a giant disaster and working on my Master’s degree.

In short, a lot was going on.

One day I was rushing to a meeting in another city.

While driving, I witnessed a small car get T-boned by a pickup. The car was flipped end for end several times. I stopped to help and saw the driver, a young mother, was dying, the passenger, a Grandmother, was dead.

As bad as the scene was, the worse was finding a toddler in a car seat, not moving and trapped in the back seat. I and other good Samaritans fought to get into the back seat to help the baby. It seemed to take forever, but we got a door open, the car seat out, and to our giant relief, the baby started crying and was seemingly unharmed.

Police, Fire & EMA came in time and took over the scene, and I carried on as if I were completely normal.

 

But I wasn’t.

Something switched deep inside of me, and I began to struggle even more with work.

One day I told my boss what had happened and that was bothering me. All I received for my vulnerability was an unblinking stare.

I never felt so exposed or let down.

That one incident changed my entire relationship with her. She was once a trusted friend and confidant, and now she was someone in authority with whom I had lost trust.

The outcome was preordained the moment that trust was lost.

Eventually, I left, or maybe was pushed out, of a job I loved and left people I cared for.

 

There were many times that I reached out when I struggled with emotions and mental health.

I made myself vulnerable by trying to “#BellLetsTalk,” but no one listened.

A relative who told me that everyone hates their job so quit complaining; A boss who betrayed my vulnerability; or a Pastor who didn’t ask that one more question.

And all that accomplished was a guarded fear of opening up again.

So this year, as part of “#BellLetsTalk” let us try harder to ‘#LetsListen.’

This Post Has 16 Comments

  1. Steven Mielnik

    This is an EXCELLENT initiative because sometimes listening will help more than actions could ever do

    1. Steve A

      Thanks Steven!

  2. Sandy Biback

    Steve once again your honesty and vulnerability is so refreshing. Totally agree #LetsListen. Thank ylu

  3. Troy Stooke

    Wow Steve, Yes. Definitely agree that listening is the other half of the equation. Thank you for your candour and humanity. I hope you have the support now that you deserve.

    1. Steve A

      Thanks for your care and thoughts Tony

  4. Ann B Rosenfield

    Wow, Steve. Thank you for your unflinching honesty and thoughtful discussion

    “LetsListen

    1. Steve A

      Thanks Ann

      I always appreciate your voice on a subject

  5. Valerie Nielsen

    Thanks for sharing Steve. It’s not easy being vulnerable. I have been there trying to talk with no one listening and it’s not easy. #let’s listen.

  6. Larry

    You make an excellent point. It’s time to listen.

    1. Steve A

      Thanks Larry!

  7. Darryl Kimak

    It takes a lot to share something as personal and moving as this. So many of us are ill equipment to handle similar experiences or to provide the support needed. These discussions are important in helping to change this.

  8. Darryl Kimak

    Oops, ill equipped to handle similar experiences…

    1. Steve A

      Thanks Darryl

      I appreciate you rcomments … a lot!

  9. Lois Derry

    Very well said Steve. Those of us who really know you understand that you aren’t as tough and hard nosed as you spent many years portraying. But to open up in this forum is very brave and very refreshing. I know I will try to listen more and hope I can help others in their moments of need. Kudos!

    1. Steve A

      Thanks Lois, I appreciate that

  10. julia Coe

    Terrific article Steve
    I wish the First Responders had gotten your info. so someone could have thanked you and checked on you .

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